Ryan Murphy has a painful reason to explain why he relishes cranking out new projects.
In a preview clip from the all-new Tuesday, Dec. 1 episode of Bethenny Frankel‘s podcast, the prolific television producer and filmmaker discussed why he feels highly motivated to make the most of his time.
“When I was growing up, when I came of age sexually, it was 1981,” Murphy said on the Just B podcast. “It was right when AIDS began, so I went through, as a gay man, the entire AIDS crisis in the ’80s and into the 90s—from ’81 until ’96, when the cocktail came about. And every day of my life, I thought, OK, well, this is it. I’m not going to make it.”
The 55-year-old Ratched executive producer recalled that he attended “many, many funerals” while he was younger.
“A lot of this, I put into this television show I did called Glee,” the six-time Emmy winner said about his Fox series that embraced the idea of seizing the moment. “That’s a running theme on that show. So I always felt that I was on borrowed time. Like, I always felt that there was an expiration stamp on my ass, and I’ve been to many shrinks to talk about it. And it’s almost like I still have that fear that it’s all going to be taken away the next day. So it’s very ingrained with my work ethic, where I’m like, I get an opportunity to create.”